Should I become a girl or a boy on the street

Should I become a girl or a boy on the street.

I am a nonbinary person, and I am nearly very comfortable with the way I look. I mean, I actually look very feminine. I don’t have beard at all. I had all my facial hair lasered, starting long ago. And I also have long hair. At first sight, people are confused about my look, but the first impression is, “What kind of girl is this?” Because I act as if I am a boy.

Masquerading as man?

I think I can’t see the truth about myself. Really? Do I think I don’t know the truth about me? 😂

The problem is my job

Well infact what masess everything is my job. I am an independent English Teacher and have blogs about teaching and that’s how I find my students. And of course I have to use my real name as provided on my ID card. Because I am a unit like everybody. On the other hand I represent a man’s name as a unit.

At work, when I teach, people accept me as their teacher. May be while On their minds they might think as:

‘this teacher looks girly but it’s ok he’s a man name so he is man a teacher’ thus a real student shouldn’t care about how their teacher look anyways.

Well of course not everybody is obsessed with gender while they learn and chose a teacher…

But some language courses with multiple classes don’t like to work with me because of the way I look.. that’s why I am mostly in 1 to 1 classes and teaching online privately…

If i had been living abroad, somewhere people didnt care about being a travesty… (it means shemale in turkish and it will be regarded as travesti )  i would go out like this. .. oh yee you dont know what i mean by saying “like this” I mean like a travesti, or like a girl… I would definitely go out as a girl… heheheheh 😆😂

I would like to walk with my mini skirt and high heels up on toes and tits forward mincing with a pulpy pink sugary small leather bag. 😉 And yes this is being a travesti or travesty … And besides it is inevitable for me imagining the descriptoin above when i think of being a travesti… I think ı couldn’t mean what I wanted to mean in the previous sentence… whatever.

Coming back to the begining of my post as i said ” if i lived somewhere people didn’t care being a travesti” … well .. i don’t know what would I become…